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Hem, Sometimes, in all of my activities that i do, i accidentally meet with the big question in my mind. yeah, the question that like “who am i?”, “what i must do in this world?”, “what is my destiny?”, “I’m not supposed to do this thing, i created to do something big.” and sort a kind of thing (yeah, really, i think to many activities and other thing is not healthy for us, well at least for me, it’s like some kind of alien whispering all the thing in my head hahahahaha….^^) and suddenly i got all depressed way to my bone…(did somebody in this world feel like this to?) but i keep saying to my self, c’mon there still a task that you must do, you must go to gym, you must read a book, you must go teaching, writing an article, and etc, etc.

So what should i do? the show must go on, and reluctantly, i do my obligation, and the next day, i feel myself explode like…KABOOMMM!!!! and all of the question start showing like a crazy in head, it’s like going nut!!! isn’t this kind of question supposedly make me reflect upon my self and make me feel the peace in my inner self (well, that if my inner self really exist…Coz i never see it even once in my live…..^^)

And when i’m go to the melancholy mode, there nothing that can stop me from doing whatever i want, and it mean litterally. sometimes if  i already feel tired of what i done, i can leave it and make a excuse not to do it, with easily. Example, when i want to go teaching and feel like i describe above, i would say that i’m not in good condition (well, not phisically, but mentally hehehehehhehehe……) and i must take a leave….even my body is in perfect health…..now, i know this is not good, but if  i teach in that condition, i could gone nut, and take AK-47 and shoot all the kid that make  me feel angry.

So i take my leave, and do whatever i want, after a few day i would feel more depressed, and think i must do something that have more meaning, and start to do anything that have a good value, and after a few week, the cycle is repeat it self  again. so basically, i  like in never ending cycle.

Anyone that have the same experience with me?

Can give me a good advice?

Just sharing my experience in my live. SUCCESS IS WITHIN YOUSELF!!!

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